| Thank you, Captian Obvious. No, really, thank you. Why do people find it necessary to point out the most obvious things? It's completely unnecessary. See, look, even I do it. I'm in a mood today... I think it's the chocolate. Anyway, the real reason I'm writing.... I don't really have any specific reason. I just need to get some things off my chest. For instance, I really, really need people other than my parents to hang out with. I'd really like to join some sort of young adult group at church, but, alas, there is no such thing. They have people who are older than me... and people who are younger than me. Then the people who are actually my age aren't in the same area of life that I am. They aren't married... they don't have children... they just want to party. Yes, even at a church that's what they seem to want to do. I just want to find some good people that I can relate to... perhaps play board games... or cards. Yes, I am truly THAT boring. My nightly routine consists of watching Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy and then putting the little one to bed. On some occasions, I actually stay up to watch the nightly news! GASP! I know... ridonkulous, isn't it? But, that's me. My husband is a bit of a loner and doesn't enjoy going out. I have to practically beg him to take me out or to do something... and even still, it's a bit boring. He'd rather sit at home and play on the computer and watch TV. I just wish there was something/someone out there who could actually motivate me... that would make me be me... that wouldn't let me fall into the deep ruts that seem to engulf who I actually am. I want to shine. I want to stand out. I want to make a difference. I know that's it's my decision to be depressed or moody or whatever, but it would help to have some sort of motivation to actually do something with my life. When I told my husband about wanting to go back to school, he told me it would be pointless because I wouldn't finish. What? Who does that?! I even know what I want to major in, now. I will be signing up for the fall semester... and I will go to classes ... and I will pass my classes... as long as I get the financial aide that I need. There's absolutely no way I can afford it right now. I also need to get a part-time job. Once again, the hubby promised to keep one, and he hasn't. So, now it's fallen on my shoulders to get one. I'm thinking about asking for my job back at DQ. As much as I hate doing that, I have to. I have to be able to pay my bills... which I can't right now since the hubby bought another car. STUPID. I shouldn't have let him talk me into that. I knew we couldn't afford it, but we needed something... we should've gotten something that was cheaper... Oh well, I guess we'll just see what happens... Yeah, we'll go ahead and call this the "GRIPE" post since that's all I seem to be doing. It just boggles my mind the way that some people think... I should've thought about that before I made the decisions that I did. If you're listening, I still miss you. I don't think that there will ever be a day that I don't think about you. One day, I will see you again... One day.... |
